If i could live a day over

if i could live a bad day over, I would live the over the day that my Papaw died. Yea i know what your thinking why would you want to live over such a tragic day. This is why, i would live that day over because i would tell him that last goodbye that i didnt get to tell him i would of told him i loved him for those last few minutes he was alive. The day before he died i had a choice if i wanted to see him or not and i didnt know he was that bad. I chose not to see him i chose to go and do something stupid and hanging out my friends rather than to see my dying papaw. I regert it every day of my life. I dont know how i could be so selfish that i would do something like that. He was the only grandparent that i had that was fun to hang out with and was fun to be around. I always wanted to go to a nascar race with him but i never had that chance. But thats the past thats my fault that i didnt go see him. I cant do anything about it now i wish i could but i can't. Life is a rollercoaster and that was one of the biggest ones i ever rode.